I've been thinking...... esp after my police officer selection on thur..FAILED!...Its like suddenly..i start to find out...what kind of life am i leading...deadly office hour...low pay...having a diploma certificate tat the field of work somehow dosent interests me at all....I am so lost? My initial plan for years just seems to be blown off by the wind and left with a blank page...i knw that there is alot of opportunities out there for me to seek on but i just feel that i am not happy...despite being broke..working hard like a idiot for 6 days a week...no freedom ?I am always thinking back about the past while i am on my mp3..sometimes i will jus smile in the train rides , buses and even when i am walking home...but sometimes...those songs also bring back sad memories...no way going back..feelings is so much diff now...songs abt our past , my teenage life..my ite my poly my gv life..its either a smile or a frown to step it forward... Life goes on ... people changes ... Face it...